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Peek Inside How We Lived

Nineteen-year-old Kelsey watched her brother's funeral from afar, like an outsider. Chase came, though. She knew he would. Until a few months ago, the three of them had been best friends, then Chase made a mistake that shattered them all. But when Kelsey looks at him, she doesn’t see her brother’s killer. She sees the boy next door who’s always taken care of her. But the boy she loves is still hiding secrets from that night. Secrets she can’t know. Secrets that might destroy everything they have...again.

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The secrets he’s keeping from that night could destroy everything again…

Nineteen-year-old Kelsey Larkin’s parents uninvited her to her brother’s funeral. She just wanted to wear jeans and a T-shirt—the clothes Kyle would’ve wanted her in—not wrap herself up in death. So she watched the funeral from afar, like an outsider. Which is just how she feels.

Chase came, though, just like she knew he would. Until a few months ago, the three of them had been best friends, and then Chase made a mistake that shattered both families. But when Kelsey looks at him, she doesn’t see her brother’s killer. She sees the boy next door who’s always taken care of her. She sees home.

When Chase tells her his feelings run deeper than friendship, she can’t help but get lost in him. In Chase, she finally has the closure she’s been unable to find anywhere else. But the boy she’s falling in love with is still hiding secrets about the night Kyle died. Secrets that could destroy everything they have…again.


"A beautiful story of mistakes, second chances, and love. I couldn't put this book down!" --NYT Bestselling Author Jen McLaughlin

"This was a reallllly moving and adorable New Adult Romance." --BJ's Book Blog, Goodreads

"Great job Erin Butler, you've captured my heart with this book." --Ellen Watkins, Goodreads

"This book gets all the hearts from me. Heartbreaking, heart wrenching, heartwarming and heart stoppingly beautiful, I read How We Lived in one sitting and felt every moment of Kelsey and Chase's grief, pain and love." --Nicola, Goodreads

Additional Details

ISBN: 9781622661824
Series: Remembering Kyle, Book 1
Release Date: Apr 28, 2014
Page Count: 200
Imprint: embrace
Genre: contemporary, new adult
Tropes: coming of age/family/social issues, friends to lovers

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By Pam April 24, 2014

4 stars

The day Kyle died was the day everyone’s life turned for the worst, not only grieving a brother, son or best friend, but a life lost that was full of possibilities. Grief, anger, misery all play a part in healing, but more importantly forgiveness and compassion. Chase and Kelsey lost more tha ...more

By Anna January 09, 2015

Brothers best friend and the boy next door ? Yes, more please!



This was a reallllly moving and adorable New Adult Romance.
I loved Chase and Kelsey - and I wish that someone would've told me to read this book before Last Wish ☺ But it's ok - there wasn't anything that I didn't understand.

Tissues might be needed! ☺



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By Michaela July 29, 2016

I love this book! Erin Butler´s writing reminds me of Colleen Hoover´s so, I like it a lot!

The whole story is really complicated and full of unexpected situations. Main heroes have the real character and fall in love really hard and that is the reason why their story is so strong and loveable!

Love i ...more

By Darleen April 29, 2014

» Review can also be found on Orchids & Amethysts.

Title: How We Lived
Author: Erin Butler
Rating: 4.5/5

Thanks to NetGallery and Entangled Publishing (Embrace) for giving me a chance to read this before the official release.

Nineteen-year-old Kelsey Larkin’s parents uninvited her to her brother’s funera

By Jess April 29, 2014

Wow. I was pleasantly surprised with this book. When I first read the blurb for this book, it just completely intrigued me. Although it took me a little time to get round to reading this one, once I started, I just couldn't stop. I didn't have huge expectations for this novel, being that it's anothe ...more

By Ellen April 23, 2014

In How We Lived, written by Erin Butler, she portrayed the realness behind losing a family member too soon. I have been in Kelsey Larkin's shoes, I lost my only brother to suicide 2 years ago at the age of 38, and reading this book summed up how hard that is. It was so well written to show just what ...more

By *P April 14, 2014

5 "Better Get Some Kleenex" Stars

Wow. This book was really good. I love when I go into a story without big expectations, and then you are blown away. While this was a quick read for me it was rich with substance and filled with things I love like friends who find love and healing while they do it.

Ke ...more

By Funzee May 06, 2014

***3.8/5 stars***


Bro, I’m sorry, man. I couldn’t stay away…can’t stay away....

You shouldn't have a feeling with your best friend's sister....
You shouldn't fallin' in love with a girl which her brother killed by you....
You shouldn't want her....
You shouldn't let her know your feeling....
She's for

By Nicola June 20, 2014

This book gets all the hearts from me. Heartbreaking, heart wrenching, heart warming and heart stoppingly beautiful, I read How We Lived in one sitting and felt every moment of Kelsey and Chase's grief, pain and love. Told from both their perspectives, I held it together right until the very end and ...more

By Tania (Real-Listen-Feel) February 05, 2017

4.25 stars

Dès que j'ai lu le résumé de ce livre, il m'a fait pensé à Come Back to Me de Mila Gray que j'avais plus qu'adoré. Alors il fallait absolument que je le lise. J'avais vraiment l'impression que j'aurais droit à une belle histoire d'amour, mais aussi de pardon et d'émotion. Et j'avais bien r ...more

By Jena April 27, 2014

I just adored this book. How We Lived takes a death and spins it into a story with so many emotions and so many individuals overcoming grief. It has such a dark feel yet romantic and sexy too and I loved the combo.

Kelsey is such a great character for so many reasons. First, there is a huge change f ...more

By ci February 03, 2015

5 stars for opening my eyes and my heart

I LOVE Entangled Publishing and their authors. If you haven't been reeled in yet, you need to be. So many genres, so many great books!

This was my first book by Erin Butler and it won't be my last.

If you follow my reviews than you know that I don't lay out the ...more

By J October 01, 2016

I really enjoyed this somewhat short, but definitely enjoyable book about three best friends, a sister and a brother and the boy next door, who all grew up together and then tragedy struck. The boy next door drives the brother home from a party in honor of the brother's return from Afghanistan. Unfo ...more

By Mandy April 29, 2014

Wow! What an emotional story! Kelsey and Chase are both dealing with their grief of losing Kyle - Kelsey's brother. It was so heartbreaking to see what death can do to friendship and family. Grief can really change so much of your life. I felt so sad for Kelsey and her family as they struggled with ...more

By Melissa April 10, 2014

A good new adult book complete with sadness, secrets and complicated relationships. Kelsey grew up best friends with her older brother Kyle and their next door neighbor Chase. Now Kyle is dead. Kyle was a passenger in a car Chase was driving when they hit a patch of ice. Kelsey is torn between blami ...more

By Felicia May 01, 2014

Really liked this book. It deals with a lot of issues young adults can relate too. Loss, drinking and driving, feeling like your lost and drowning in your own sorrow, regret, hatred, compassion. If you've ever lost a loved one this will hit close to home. I loved Chase, he is a truly goof guy leavin ...more

By Jessica April 13, 2014

What I really liked about this book was that it was short and sweet. Its perfect for when I'm really busy with school and got a few moments at a time to read. I loved the characters and loved that there was more then one point of views. I liked that the dual POV helped me understand Chases intention ...more

By April February 25, 2015

This was not the easiest of reads. My heart hurt a LOT for these two people. In the end, I was so thankful for their HEA! ...more

By Francesca March 13, 2016

Un NA simple et mignon ...more

By Trixiter April 26, 2014

What a wonderful story! Erin, I can't wait to read more books of yours! You truly have a way with words, how you brought Kels and Chase to life, beautiful! Loved their story! ...more

By Elanor July 30, 2017

Pour ce livre, j’avoue avoir été attirée par la couverture et le titre mais en lisant le livre, j’y ai découvert une histoire plus profonde qui donnait au titre tout son sens.

Kelsey est une jeune femme que j’ai beaucoup aimé d’entrée, elle a tout juste 19 ans et a déjà subit un grand traumatisme, la ...more

By Sleepy May 26, 2014

This was a fucking beautifully written story. Heartbreaking yet beautiful.

My heart broke for all these characters, they were all in such pain and were hurting. They lost someone they loved and didn't know how to deal.
Kels is Kyle sister and she feels empty without him,they were best friends,

Chase wa ...more

By Farrah April 16, 2014

An emotional, sweet, and wonderful New Adult romance, How We Lived was a fantastic read. I really liked this lovely book. I thought it was great.

Kelsey was a lovely heroine. Throughout the book, she struggled to move on from her brother's death. As the book went on, she became stronger and more dete ...more

By Lynn May 29, 2014

I am a sucker for a bad boy with secrets. And Chase is no exception. His and Kelsey's story of loss, love and survival is outstanding.
Chase was always the boy next door to Kelsey, the boy she was close to and loved from afar, but one night changed that all; the night Chase killed her brother.
Kelsey ...more

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Erin Butler

About the author

Erin Butler

Erin Butler is lucky enough to have two jobs she truly loves. As a librarian, she gets to work with books all day long, and as an author, Erin uses her active imagination to write the kinds of books she loves to read. Young Adult and New Adult books are her favorites, but she especially fangirls over a sigh-worthy romance. She lives in Central New York with her very understanding husband, a stepson, and doggie BFF, Maxie. Preferring to spend her time indoors reading or writing, she'll only willingly go outside for chocolate and sunshine--in that order.

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